Am I a good friend? I try, but most people don't set out to be bad friends. I just feel like...I don't know, if I were a good friend, my friends wouldn't make me feel bad about myself. They'd avoid hurting my feelings, cuz I try to avoid hurting theirs.
I keep thinking things are going to reset at the end of this year, and I'll get another blank slate. I guess it's carry-over from senior year, but I need to start thinking about consequences. I wish I could start over. I was thinking about transferring today. Not just to Vassar, just not Geneseo. It's too much like City Honors. I'm jealous of people that aren't in school. I half wish I could just leave. Just like, vanish, and never see these people again. I hate it when people use their blogs to bitch about their friends and how life is so hard and it isn't fair, and yet here I am. I know I should just pull up my socks and concentrate on finishing the semester, and then I can work things out from there. I'll be home, and away from school people, and things will look better. Right now though it's hard to imagine things not sucking. I just want to go away.
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There is nothing about you that needs to change in the circumstance you describe. Flip 'em off, and move on.
The friends who are your friends will stay that way no matter where you go when or why. I speak from experience, albeit damn few friends.
Buddhism I don't know. Being a caring, loving person as you are will do the trick. You are much loved. go with that.
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