Monday, November 10, 2008

I Don't Want To Wait

My SCA leader Brad recently got a facebook, and he's been uploading all of his pictures. I look at them, and I feel like I'm wasting my life. I wish I could be out in the wilderness, building stuff instead of sitting at my desk trying to write a paper, and actually looking at pictures online. SCA leaders are the kind of people that I want to be. I like being outside, and I like working with my hands until you're exhausted and starving. That's what living feels like, and that isn't what I'm doing right now. I loved milking the cows when they came to visit the campus. Nate (another SCA leader) spent a year working on a goat farm, and that sounded really appealling to me. I would love to do something like that, but David Sedaris wrote a very discouraging essay about how working on a farm actually sucks. Granted, he was a fruit picker, not a goat milker, but it still gives me pause. I looked it up, and you only need to be 21 and have a driver's lisence to be a crew leader. You also need a couple of certifications, but I could do that. So maybe I'll apply next summer. I want to have that kind of life. I don't want to be a hobo like Brad, but it seems like a good escape from college. I have that feeling where I want to knock peoples' hats off, it's time to go back into the woods.
It was psychology day today, and as it turns out, I'm a failure as a psych major. I'm not going to get into grad school because I am terrible at stats, and so I won't be able to get a job in psychology. This isn't totally unrelated to my sudden urge to run away and raise goats, but that had been on my mind for awhile anyway. I want to get away. I want an adventure.


Greg said...

Statistics seem to me to be only relevant to a particular line of working in psychology, not so much the kind where you're actually engaged in providing treatment or applying the principles learned functioning as a teacher, but in research or as an industrial psychologist, and while those are appealing career alternatives each in their own way, it's not my understanding that that's where you want to take this, so I wouldn't worry too much or be sweeping in your assessment of your still-developing skills in the field.

Meanwhile, living in the woods or taking up agriculture fails to account for the fact that both require you to be actively engaged in being filthy and smelly and dealing with other things equally so. Milking a one-off cow or goat sounds nice, but you'll spend far more time addressing the issue of their manure, and not just for one of them.

claudia said...

me too!

TCA said...

Farm life is really for those who grew up loving it. And it has so many variables for barely making a living weather and insect plagues and market prices and...manure.

Emily said...

Actually even if you were a research psychologist, your university would have resources to help you run your data, and there would be actual statisticians to consult with.