Sunday, February 17, 2008
Taking A Chance
I have a habit of keeping guys at an arms length emotionally. I don't know why I do it, but I do. This time though, I'm letting my guard down. I like someone, I'm fairly confident that he likes me, and I'm letting him in. I'm self-disclosing about how dorky I am, I told him about my various histories with his teammates, I'm trusting him to like me despite these things, and he seems to. It's exciting in a scary way, letting him in like this means I'll be that much more disappointed if it doesn't work out, but he's worth it. Maybe that's the key, I've finally found someone I like enough to assume the risk. It feels different, I don't want beads, I don't want to share details with my friends, I just want to see where this goes.